TGIF...

It is crazy for me to think that there is even a remote possibility of being able to change my life so much... I know Bali is probably a total long shot, but it would mean a HUGE change and an opportunity for me to truly follow my dreams and do something that I could only DREAM of. I am trying not to think about it because I don't want to get my hopes up.

I am not going to lie, I've had a rough week. A really shitty, rough week and all I can think of is wanting to be underwater. I have my mask hanging up on my doorknob in my bedroom and all I want to do is dive. It truly is my safe haven. It is where I can go and just be most comfortable - there is no stress, no emails, no work, no heartache, nothing else exists when you are underwater. It isn't hard for me - it comes easily and it is my "happy place" - Yes, I have running, but that is HARD. It doesn't come easy to me like swimming always has. It hurts. It makes me tired -- but it does the job when it comes to getting my mind off of things, so that is helpful but it doesn't put me at peace like diving does.

Thing is, the dream of being able to do that EVERYDAY and to be able to teach others to love it the way I do would be amazing. It doesn't matter if I go to Bali or not - I am going to be instructing one day regardless - it is like cycle. I am going to do it and I am going to be good at it just like I do when I teach now. :) I guess if I had one big wish right now I would wish it to be warmer right now so I could go jump into the quarry! (and I would if there was a chilly willy dive this weekend...)

Regardless, the whole experience with Blue Season Bali and the whole Best Dive Job thing has made me feel incredibly loved by my friends and family - I never thought that I would see so much support from people who know me. It is just amazing - so for those of you who read this, thank you for all your love and support. It makes me feel like an incredibly lucky person and the wonderful things you have said has gotten me through some not-so-great times (especially this week, so thanks!) :)

And as for running, I looked at my training schedule and I need to get my ASS in gear if I am going to do this. Seriously I need to hook it up and get a nice long run under my belt... I can DO THIS!