I haven't been able to sleep either - I wake up in the middle of the night and I just can't stop thinking. So after laying around and tossing and turning, I end up giving in and heading to the gym in an attempt to clear my mind.
Physically my body is tired, my brain hurts from work and emotionally I am just exhausted. The last month and a half have been really difficult for me personally and my heart and mind are exhausted from it and the one thing that I know would magically make it all better would be just a few hours underwater. Shit, I would take a crappy 15 minute dive in 0 viz and 45 degree water right now... I just want that peace. That calmness. The ability to just be comfortable in an environment that is where I belong. I swear I must have been a freaking fish in my past life. I probably could just go and swim a few laps but as pathetic and ridiculous as it may sound I don't really want to go through all the preparation to swim laps (and yes, I know that sounds silly because there is a lot more that goes into doing a dive then jumping in and swimming back and forth but swimming is boring).
But alas, there will be no diving for a while as the quarry is not open and I don't live in a world in which I can walk outside and magically have a private jet awaiting to wisk me down to the tropics for the weekend, so I am going to have to settle for something else... and it is either going to be the six Georgetown Cupcakes sitting in my kitchen right now or a really painful workout.
Hummm.. tough choice on that one...
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| Really?! do you think I would pick working out over cake/cupcakes based on this? |
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